Getting Closer!

The end of the summer is a little over a month away.... That makes me sad, and also a little excited. I am sad because it is going to be hard and I am going to have to juggle between school, work and the little guy and it is going to be exhausting. I have had such a good time with my sweets over the last two months it really makes me regret not doing the school thing before. But I am doing this for us. So I can support us. I am older and chose to do some stupid things in my youth, and I am paying for that now, but trying my damndest to get my life in order. But, as I approach 28, I know that I did not want to wait too long to have a family. Not only have I always wanted to be a mom, Some of the last lucid words my grandmother said to me were not to wait to have a family. So at 26 I decided to have a baby. I knew it was going to be hard, but my son is soo worth it. I want to be someone that he can look up too. I want to be a role model for him. If he decides that he would like to go to college, I would like him to have someone to guide him. I want to be able to support him without having to worry.
I also want my mother to have a child that she can be proud of. My brothers and I really chose paths that took us down some bad roads and while I was lucky and got on the right track soon after I turned 18 it took one of my brothers a little longer, and one is still battling his problems, so I want to do this for my mom. I want her to be able to say that she has a child that is college educated and that makes her proud. Not that she is not proud of me now. My mom is my best friend and she is very proud of how I turned myself around and am taking care of myself, but it would be nice to give her something to be super proud of.
I also want to do it because I promised my grandma that I would.
But!
I am excited for school to start now that I have changed majors and I am excited to jump right in and get my hands dirty. I think I will do really well, I have always had an interest in science and stuff so the classes will be fun. I can't wait to get the prereq's done so that I can start the nursing program. I think after I have got the nursing part of it done, I want to look into what it would take for me to get my CNM (Certified Nurse-Midwife) because I want to be a L&D nurse, so why not go all the way and be someone who is actually allowed to deliver babies in non lifethreatening situations. That would be a dream. I am really hoping that with Cain being a little older this semester that it will be a little easier for me to do well in my classes. that way I can have more time for my baby boy.

I am going to pick up my school books today. I already have the math book and I was thinking of starting early on that so that I can get in as much practice as possible before next time.

So until next time, Pictures!
My sweets and I swimming


Uncle Bob's Elvis glasses

July '09

July'10

For the love of......

Reading!! I love to read. One of the best things to me is being able to find a good story. I love books that make you not want to put them down. Books that make you kind of sad when you've finished them, because you wish the story would keep going. I love a book that can draw you into the story, you are there with the characters experiencing the story.

The best thing about summer vacation is that I have time to read stories and books I want to read. I wanted to share some of my all time favorites and books that I am reading right now.

Okay. If any of you know me by know you know that I have to start this post with my love, The Harry Potter Series (JK Rowling). This is one story that was able to make me live in the book, to experience it. I think it may just be the child in me. I love the way JK Rowling was able to create a whole new world while drawing parrallels to the world we know. Awesome fun stories and I CAN NOT WAIT until Cain is old enough to understand and have me read them to him.

I must admit I have been sucked into the Twilight Series (Stephanie Meyer). I love it. It is a good romance. the books are definietly better than the movies although the movies are pretty good too imo.

Gone With the Wind (Margaret Mitchell) and the sequal Scarlett (Alexandria Ripley) have been two of my favorites since my teen years. I watched GWTW first, and then read the book and I fell in love with it. I like the history in the story along with the romance.

The Late Great Me (Sandra Scoppettone)- this book I read when I was like 14. I forgot about it for a long time and started looking for it again about a year and a half two years ago. I could not remember the title, but remembered key points in the story. I googled it off and on for those 2 years and finally about 4 weeks ago I found it. Bought it on ebay for a total of like 6 buck with the shipping. I was sooo happy!!! This is a tragic story of a teen alcoholic and her journey through it. Good good story. Based in the 70's.

Now I could go off and do this forever but instead of giving descriptions I'll just say that a few more of my favorites are: Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas(Hunter Thompson), Drowing Ruth (Chirstina Schwarz), The Lake of Dead Languages (Carol Goodman), Running in Heels (Anna Maxted. I've read a few by her and love them all), Can You Keep a Secret (Sophie Kinsella), Night (Elie Wiesel), Charlie Bone series (Jenny Nimmo), The Womans Murder club series ( James Patterson; although I haven't read any in a long time), Suzannes Diary for Nicholas (James Patterson), The Shining, and Cell (Both Stephen King).
Mr and Mrs. BoJo Jones (Ann Head), Tuck Everlasting (Natalie Babbitt), Of Mice and Men (John Steinbeck) and Lord of the Flies (William Golding). All books from my preteen/ early teen years that I still own today (and read)

Also I Love Mary Higgins Clark books. There are 3 or 4 Danelle Steel books I like as well.

I am going to start reading Wicked this weekend. I started it a while back and it was good, but then school started and I was not able to finish it. Can't wait to read the story of the Wicked Witch. I have a Bill Hicks (my favorite comedian) biography that I want to read that I have had forever. It by Stephen King. those are the three that I have planned for now. I am longing for a trip to Barnes and Noble but you need money for that. Soon though. The smell of new books is calling my name and I will satisfy that craving soon.

So as you can see when it comes to books my choice is eclectic. What are some books that you all like to read? Favorites, good reads etc. I am always looking for more stuff to read so Let me know!!

an Update and a Thank you!

So.... yeah.
I've not updated in quite a while and it is all because I really just haven't wanted too. Don't have an excuse, cause I've been home with the little man but I've just been doing other things. Like watching LOST. Jav and I loved LOST. But we got tired of the cliff hanger endings and so we quit watching, him at the end of season two and me in the middle of season three. Well, now that the series is over we are watching it!!! No cliff hanger endings for us!! lol

I went in to Pima the other day to fix some stuff that they had gotten mixed up regarding my major. I registered for a few different classes and dropped some that I had already registered for. I can't believe that I'll be back to soing school work in less than two months. Can't wait to have it all done! I am taking some spanish classes. I feel that it would be beneficial to know a second language and while I would like to learn something else like Russian or German, I think that Spanish would be more useful considering where I live.

My little man is such a big boy!! He is crusing all over the place. He hardly ever crawls anymore, but I noticed that with the crawling too. once he learned how to crawl up on his knees he no longer did the army crawl. now he walks. It is so amazing to look at him and think that a mere 15 months ago I was laying flat on my back trying to keep him inside. that a mere 13 months ago, he was born, that he looked so tiny and helpless and relied on me for everything. Now he is a very independant little boy, loves to constantly be moving or doing something, that he doesn't want mommy to hold him for more than a few minutes at a time, and he is suuuuch a daddy's boy. and here I am wanting to do it all over again. I can't wait to lose this weight so that I can give Cain (hopefully!!) a little sister :D

I want to sat thank you to my friend and Tattoo Artist Zip for providing me with the artwork for my new blog layout. Isn't it neat? Thanks Man, and I can't wait to have you Tattoo me!!

I've got a walker!!!

My little boy is a walker!! It is so stinkin cute I thought I would share a video.


Also, If you notice off to the side, there is a prayer button. I am not a religious person, therefore I do not pray, but I put this on my blog because this is a friend of mine that I met on my Incompetent Cervix support forum. Her son was born a day shy of 26 weeks gestation and they are currently going through the NICU. I ask that you please say a prayer, or send warm thoughts, or whatever you do for Issac. Deb is such a sweetheart and Little Isaac has already been through so much. Thanks. If you want to check out his story click on the button it will take you to his blog.

Happy Saturday!

1st Birthday!!

We woke up on 5/27 (his actual birthday) and let him open some prizes.





Then we went to the zoo






Saturday Was the Actual party









All in all? Good weekend. Fun times, Good party, Got to catch up with old, missed friends! (Yay Zip!!)

Its Been Awhile

So its been awhile since I've posted. It was so busy with the ending of school, and frankly after it was all over I didn't even want to LOOK at my computer for awhile. But it over (for summer) and Now I am feeling better. I passed two of my classes with a B! YAY!! I failed my math class (suck) but the instructor was cool and gave me a W instead of an F (I didn't even ask for it!) so that it would not effect my GPA. What an awesome teacher. I've got my classes for next semester all picked out. I will be taking the same math class again. I am going to sit down with my text book and actually try to teach this stuff to myself so that I can pass this class next semester with an A or B. I wanna kick ass!
Cain had his one year today. He is growing well. 74th percentile for height(30.5in) 84th for head circumference and 96th for weight(25.6lbs). The doc said that we need to start giving him regular milk and that that would probably help turn him on to table foods, because he doesn't eat them. He eats graham crackers, goldfish, saltines. He'll eat ground beef in small pieces, strawberries, and bananas. But he wont eat the toddler raviolis, he won't eat any other kind of food. The doc said that once we start weaning him off formula that that should help him eat regular food. So we start tomorrow (I can't bring myself to deny my love his bottle on the same day he got shots). I cried with him when he got his shots. Its so hard to have to hold your little guy down so that someone can stick him with a needle and inflict pain upon him. I hate it. It was funny though, the MA who gave him the shots, at first he was all smiles for her and flirty. After the shots he cried everytime she tried to talk to him! It was kinda neat to see him associate the two.
Cain's birthday party is saturday. Ive been cleaning like crazy. Our backyard looks good! I am gonna inflate the small pool so that Cain and Emily and the other kids can play in it. Ive got most of the food bought. I've got to go to frys and get the cake ordered. I've got lots of candy and little trinkets for the candy bags. I can't wait to have my family over for the little guy!
His actual birthday is Thursday, and since Jav is off that day we are going to take the little guy to the Zoo for his birthday. It'll be fun to do something as a family, since we so rarely have time off together anymore. I took Thursday and Friday off to spend with my lil man.
Cain's cousins, Aunt and Uncle (Jav's brother, sister in law and kiddos) are going to come by on their way to KS. I wish they were staying in Vegas. It was so fun to go visit them. I wish that they could have made it in time for Cain's party. It would have been so fun to have them there. They are fun people. The kids are a hoot! I love them :)
Speaking of Vegas, I seriously want to try and get out there for my birthday. I really liked it there and I left with still so much to see. So I want to go back. I want to go back and I want to make it a yearly vacation. I don't know that that is feasable but certainly something to wish for. I didnt think I was gonna like Vegas as much as I did. Its so fun!
Time for work, so I leave pics!

Happy 11 months Baby Boy!

Can it really be a year ago that I was nearing the end of my bedrest journey and not even knowing it? I still had a baby inside me who got the hiccups everyday, and only liked to move when I was sleeping, A baby that would kick his daddy in the back when we would cuddle at night, but would hardly kick for him when he put his hand on my belly. A baby that I didn't know the sex of, already had a lot of pictures of (I had sonograms every two weeks from 19 weeks to 29 weeks plus a couple after that for my AFI's) and already loved uncontrollably. I cant believe that my little 6lb 12oz'er is now over 25 lbs, and is oh so big. I can't believe that he crawls, walks along the furniture, babbles up a storm, eats like a champ, and just smiles all the time. He is such a happy baby. I am so happy that he is in my life, and that I am his mom.

This picture was taken at 27 5/7 weeks on April 3rd 2009. It does not seem like this picture was taken over a year ago (Please excuse the bed head and the slightly showing belly)


A year ago today I was 31 1/7 weeks pregnant. today I have an 11 month old. I love my life.