New Years and such

Cain At his Gramma's house, look at that smile!!!!

New Years was uneventful. Stayed home with Jav and Cain and barely made it to midnight before giving Jav a kiss and going off to bed. But that is just the way I wanted it. I did not want to be out on the roads or anything like that. So this was a great New Years for me. The day after New Years I went to get my CPR and First Aid certification, because they will be doing it at my work on the 9th, but I will be on Vacation so I was told that I had to have it done or I could not come to work when I came back. I am actually kinda glad I have that certification now as I learned some very useful things and if anything were to happen to Cain or one of my other lil family members I would know how to handle the situation. So it was a well spent 40 bucks.

I am currently on a mission to get all my laundry done and to get packed for our vacation. I am sure that no one reads my blog but I am being kinda secretive about it just incase. I'll post lots of pics when we get back and am so excited to go!!

I took some really cute pics of Cain over the last few days. He is really starting to sit up on his own really good. He is also trying to work out how to use those legs and arms to get himself moving! I swear I thought he was going to crawl today watching him. Its like he knows what he has to do, its just a matter of figuring out how to put it all together. It is very cool to watch. On the other hand, no teeth yet! Not even any sign of them. I wonder when those will make an appearance? What a Lil cutie!Loving on the snowman just like his momma

Little Ham

This smile makes me crack up every time I see it

What a Christmas!!

I had such a great Christmas!! It was soo much fun to have my lil guy with me, even though his fascination extended pretty much to the wrapping paper of his presents lol! Our Christmas started on the 24th, when my mom's side of the Family celebrates Christmas. I got my yearly call that mom needed help wrapping her presents so I headed over to her house, and of course we procrastinated by putting Cain under the tree and taking pictures!!He thought it was fun to pull at the branches he could reachI really don't know what he is doing here lolAll that playing sure wore him out!

Christmas day started out with Cain and I getting up early and going to my moms to open the presents she didnt bring to my Aunts house. Of course more pic of Cain with the tree ensued.Are all these mine mom?Wow what is this?!My handsome boy and I Cain with his presents


After we left my mom's we went home to go pick up Jav and started to head out to his mom's house. We had to turn around less than half way there cause I am a dummy and let my car run out of oil. Rosie ended up coming to get us so we still got to hang out at Jav's moms. It was a long weekend and Cain was exhausted as was I but we both had fun. My brother came over sunday to change my oil and dad came over to get his pressies. Cain has now got a ugly cough and was stuffy for awhile there but I've been running the vaporizor and Gramma Rosie bought him Baby Vicks and he is already starting to sound much better.

I scored at walmart this morning! I went to buy Cain's formula and found that it was only 21.00 at Walmart!! Add to that one of the 5.00 off coupons I have and I only paid 16.00 for the big tub of formula!! SCORE!! haha

I've got to take a CPR/First Aid certification class this weekend, on saturday. My boss scheduled it for the weekend of the 9th, which she gave me off before hand because I have other plans that weekend, and so now I have to do it on my own time. Oh well, I do it now and its done and I dont have to worry about it.

I hope everyone has a Happy New Year!! Stay safe and have fun!

Really?! Christmas is 5 days away?!

I can't believe that Christmas is 5 days away? Where the hell did my year go? I can tell you that a good portion of my year was spent in bed, literally. From February 5th to about May 23rd I spent consistantly in bed making sure my baby didnt come early. 15 weeks. wow. To think that when that was all happening I thought that there was no end in sight and it seemed as though I would be in bed forever. that was 7 months ago. Next week, exactly 7 days from today my son will be 7 months old. I can't believe it. I am so happy that I made it through all that. and so so very lucky.

I can't wait to share Christmas with Cain. He may be to young to remember anything but I am so happy to have him with us. He is the light of my life and he makes everything so awesome. I can't wait to take him to my aunt's house on christmas eve as is our tradition and make him a part of that tradition. It makes me sad to think that this will be the second christmas without Grandma Sam and that he will never get to know her. But even though I don't really believe in god and all that, I do believe that she brought me and saved my wonderful little boy. If it was not for grandma watching over him, I firmly believe I wouldnt have my handsome little boy. Thank you Grandma Sam. Can't wait til were all together again. I love you.

It will be neat to make our own traditions as well. We have our own little family unit now so we need to start coming up with our own things. Especially once our family expands and it gets hard to take more than one kid to 4 different places every year.

Pregnancy Story Part 5: 19 week anatomy scan and a Cerclage

So February 5th was the big day for my anatomy scan. I was going by myself that day, because Jav had to work, he had gotten a new position at work and could not miss any time do to being in training. We had decided to not find out the sex of the baby anyhow so all he really was going to be missing was seeing the baby on the screen. My appt was scheduled for 215 so I left work at about 140 and went to obstetrix. I actually got in pretty quick being back in the sonogram room at 220. The teach, Becca, started my scan and took her time measuring the baby. When it came time for her to take a look at that area she asked if I wanted to know the sex and I told her no, so she told me to look away so there were no accidents. After she finished there she was scanning around, and she said that she found something she did not like and asked if she could do a vaginal ultrasound. I agreed so she left the room so that I could get undressed. When she came back she started the scan and she said that what she was seeing was not good. She told me that my cervix was really short and had already begun to dilate. She wanted to go get the doctor to talk to me and she said that I should call my work to tell them that I would not be back that day. I was freaking out. I knew that I was not supposed to be dilating that early so I started crying and was really scared. I called my work and I started explaining to Susan what was going on and she was relaying to Eileen. Susan said "so what does this mean?" and Eileen in the background snapped "It means she is not coming back today". She was mad that I would not be back. I was hurt, because here I am scared and not knowing what was going on and my work is mad cause I cant come back. That made it even worse. So the tech comes back and takes me to the Doctor's office. The doctor explained to me that I was 1cm dilated already and that my cervix was measuring 1.1 cm in length (which is really short). She explained that I had two options at that point. One of the options was to go home and do bedrest and hope that the baby stayed put until it was supposed to come. The other option she gave me was to get a Cerclage, She explained that a cerclage was a procedure where they are basically stitching your cervix shut. She did explain that of course there were risks with this procedure, like possibly rupturing the amniotic sac or infection that would cause the baby to come anyway. She also explained that this was not a gaurantee that the baby would not come early but it was an attempt and that it does work sometimes. This was so hard for me, because Jav was not with me, I was forced to make quick and possibly life saving decisions for our baby all by myself. I was so scared. I decided to get the cerclage. So the doctor found someone to take me over to the hospital (obstetrix is contracted with the hospital to provide high risk care, so they are on the hospital grounds) andthe whole time we were walking over there the lady kept saying "I wish I had a wheel chair for you, you should not be walking!" which was freaking me out even more, she was making it sound like my baby was going to fall out right there (Which I later find out just how serious it could be). They admitted me through triage rather than making me go through the front of the hospital and got me changed into a gown and put me in a bed. They put an iv in my arm and they drew blood and made me give a urine sample and they had me wait becasue they were also going to make me have an amniocentisis but the doctor had to do that. So as I was sitting in the room by myself waiting for the doc to come in, I called my mom and told her what was going on, and I called Jav's brother and toldhim to please bring Jav as soon as Jav got off work, and explained to him what was going on. I called my work back to tell them what was going on and this time Eileen was alot more understanding. After that I watched TV until the doctor came in with the sonogram machine to do the amnio. Her and a nurse were going to so it so they iodined my belly and they started looking for a spot to stick the needle. The doctor poked it to make sure the baby wouldn't move, so of course it did. We went through this about three ti8mes before she was able to get the needle in to get the fluid she needed. She sent the fluid off for testing because they could not do a cerclage if there was an infection in there. She said it did not look infected though. She showed it to me and said that if it were infected most the time it would be cloudy and mine was nice and clear. So after that I was left alone til people came. I watched TV, but not really hearing it or anything. I spent alot of time looking at my sonogram pictures and hoping that this procedure would work for me. Finally Jav and Babby got there around 5ish and I filled Jav in on everything and he said that he agreed with my choices. So we mostly sat around, the boys talking about things and me just listening. My mom showed up after awhile. Bobby went out to meet his dad and step mom, we were supposed to have dinner with them that night, and when Jav told them what was going on and cancelled they decided to come. On the way back in, Bobby ran into Jess, She is an old friend of Jav's and is a nurse at the hospital. So she took over being my nurse which was nice, because She told jav everything we needed to know. She did say that I was more than likely going to have to be on bedrest for the rest of the pregnancy, even with the cerclage. So that was another thing I started to worry about. My bills and such. What the hell was I going to do?!? So we all sat around everyone talking, I mostly just listening. I wasnt in much of a talking mood, and so I just sat there. Finally around 830 or 9ish they moved me to labor and delivery where I met with the guy that was going to give me the epidural for the procedure. around 10 is when they came and got me and took me to an OR. Once in there they gave me the epidural, and then they got to work. Michael, the epidural guy, stayed there and talked with me throughout the procedure, and I listened to my ipod. It took a little longer than expected because they had a hard time plaing it, but eventually got it. So when we were done, they took me back to the L&D room to recover. I was there til about 1 am when they moved me to the anti partum unit. I didnt get that much sleep that night because of the catheter, andwoke up the next morning to the nurse checking my vitals. I asked her to take the catheter out and she said that they couldnt yet but she would ask. It came out around 9 am and then I was taken to get another TVU to see how the cerclage was holding. It had given me a little more length and closed me up so I was not dilated anymore. I got more sonogram pictures which I liked. They kept me in the hospital til saturday afternoon and then sent me home with instructions to stay in bed at least until my next TVU a week away. So I went home and started my bedrest journey.

19 Days Til Cain's First Christmas

I can't believe we are 19 days away from christmas already. 21 days away from Cain turning 7 months old. Time flies a hell of a lot faster when you have a child. Everyone told me this before I had him, but know I can see it. My tiny baby that was 6.12 when he was born is a whooping 20.9 pounds, 27 inches (almost a whole 10 inches longer than when he was born. he was 19 inches at birth). I can't believe that we are less than 2 months away from the anniversary of when I went on bed rest. Was that really a year ago already? I have a hard time believing it.

I watch him growing and learning and it amazes me every day to see the ways he changes and to see him going through the stages of growth babies go through. To watch him learn how to roll over. Learning how to grab toys. Smile. Coo. Laugh. I new I wanted to be a mother ever since I was little but I never knew that it would have such an impact on me. This was meant for me I know it. I will do it all again when we are ready to give Cain a brother or sister. Everything I went through is nothing compared to what some women have to go through, and I would do it all again to have another lil one. Everything is so worth it.
I know that this Christmas Cain will still be to young to have the absolute excitement that children have at these times in the year, but it will still be fun. Buying all his "firsts". His first Christmas ornament. Stocking. His first picture with Santa. His first Picture in front of his first Christmas tree. I plan on buying a wooden box from Michaels and decorating it with boy colors and putting the words "Cain's Firsts" on it. It will be a special box for him with all his first things that I have already begun saving. His first bottles he used when home from the hosptial, His first Passy's and his First Thanksgiving bib. His first Christmas ornament will go in there too after it has been on the christmas tree. Same with his first stocking etc. It is also going to be fun to watch him grow into all the toys he is going to get and be able to play with them all. I can't wait until he starts sitting up and crawling.

Jimmy and his girlfriend cam over and met Cain yesterday. Megan said that she would like to get Cain and Ireland together so that they can play with one another. I think this is a fabulous idea because Cain not being in daycare, he does not get the interactions that other kids do so I think this would be just perfect for him. Ireland is 4 months older than him, but I think that they would have fun. At least I hope lol. And lastly, what would a post be without pictures!!




My Handsome Baby in his bumbo

My Sleeping Angel

My, What a Handsome smile

Waking up mommy in the morning!

Going for a chilly early morning shopping adventure! All bundled up!

6 Months Ago Today and Tomorrow

Damn. I cannot believe that six months ago today I was supposed to be attending a gestational diabetes class. That as registering for that class I thought I peed my pants in the worst way. That I then realized my water broke! 6 months ago today started the journey that would bring my son into the world on the 27th. I can't believe my baby boy will be 6 months old tomorrow. In less than 24 hours. that at 2:48am I met the best little boy in the whole world who changed my life forever, and I now could not imagine my life without him.
My baby boy at the Park

Today on Thanksgiving I am thankful for my little boy. The rough road and downright scary moments throughout my pregnancy make me so grateful that he is here and safe and healthy. I am grateful that I have such great people in my life that love my son as much as I do. I am grateful that I have a mom who is always there for me and helps me out with everything and is my best friend. I am grateful for a boyfriend who loves his son, and me, and when the going got tough, he stayed. I am grateful for a "mom in law" (not married but she might as well be) That does more than I can say for me and my son. I have a lot to be grateful for and this year I am able to see it more than years past. I love everyone. :)




My Mom and My baby boy

Pregnancy Story Part 4: Smooth Sailing

So after the first sonogram there was not much to report. I had an easy first half of my pregnancy. I was tired all the time but I didn't have much other symptoms. I did not have the morning sickness, sore boobs or any of that. It was alot easier than I expected it to be. I continued to work and go to school. I went to my doctors appointments once a month. Jav went with me when he could. They finally found the heartbeat on the doppler so we got to listen to the baby's heart beat at the appointments. I quit smoking as well. I didn't mention it in a previous post, but I quit smoking just before going to the sonogram, in November. I didn't go back to smoking either, That makes it a year this month that I have now been a non smoker. So we went on with the appointments and everything was fine. I was asked to come in early to do the glucose test. Being a heavier patient, they wanted to test me early. So I went in to take the one hour, and of course failed it. Does anyone pass the one hour? I've never heard of it. Anyhow, so I had to go back for the 3 hour. I had to take some time off of work for it and I went on a Tuesday. December 3rd. I took my schoolwork with me so that I had something to keep me occupied. This time the stuff was not as good, it was more sweet (I liked the stuff the first time around, I had the orange.) So I had my blood drawn, drank the stuff and then sat there for three hours and had my arm poked every how on the hour. I used to have good viend in my arm, but after this pregnancy, I think they are collapsed lol. So I finished up and they told me that I could call in a couple of days to find out the results. I left and headed off to work. When I got to work I used the bathroom, and something unsusal happened. **this is where my disclaimer comes into effect** I didn't think anything of it but I had a large amount of clear discharge. Like on huge glob. I thought it looked like snot. I had heard that it was normal to have an increase in discharge in pregnancy so I just thought that this was finally starting to happen to me. I went about my day like nothing happened. This brings us up to the 3rd. Two days away from the big anatomy scan! and consequently the worst day of my whole pregnancy.