Pumpkin Patch!

Yesterday we took Cain to Apple Annies Pumpkin Patch and Orchard. It was soo much fun! It was nice going during the week because there were not many people there and we pretty much had the Pumpkin patch all to ourselves for pumpkin picking! We ended the trip at The orchard with a nice picnic lunch!


Running at the Pumpkin patch!

Picking Pumpkins

Look at that face!

Playing with Grasshoppers

Lunch at the orchard

Sleepy ride home

It was a great day for all. We've got a lot of baby pumpkins that Cain brought home as well as a couple big ones that momma wanted for seeds and pumpkin pie making!

September Beginnings

Wow. It has been a while since I've posted.
I need to try and write more posts. This blog was made with the intention of not having people read it (although it is nice that you do) but to sort of chronicle things that my son and I do. Not just together but things I do too. It'd be nice to have a log of that.
Speaking of which, I started school. So far all is going well, but we are two weeks in. I started out strong in my math class, biology is looking to be by far my favorite, spanish is pretty fun too, and psychology started out on a boring streak. I am hoping the psych class picks up or I fear that I will have a hard time with all that dry reading. Bio is fun because I got the lab kit and I love doing expirements. some days I really don't want to do anything and I wonder why I had to wait this long to go to school. I am tired a lot and I think that affects it too. I don't know if that is something that is a product of me being not very active, or what. It can't be because of Cain, he sleeps good, so I do too. He wakes up early, but that has been the norm for me since he was born, so that I should really be used too. I hate feeling tires so much. Some days are better than others but when I do feel that way I feel like I get nothing done. I am making a good attempt at keeping up with my classes and I think so far I am doing pretty good.
I've given up soda. I am on week 3 of no soda and I am so proud of myself. Soda was probably a bigger vice than smokes were, and I have gone without for 3 weeks so far. I still have had some caffine but not a whole lot. The first few days I went cold with none, and I took aspirin before the headache came just to kind of ward it off. After that I've had a cup of coffee here and a tea there but mostly it is water or vitamin water. now I just need to get more active. I need more hours in the day. Anyone wanna make some for me!?!
Cain is so much fun. now that he is older and playing and starting to talk I love being able to do things with him. I love seeing the look on his face when we do something fun like go to the zoo,and he sees the animals.He is still not saying much but there are things that it sounds like he is saying. I hear mama, dada, baby, and dog are the more apparent ones. he says go and up. and he is a MONSTER!!! My boy is huge! People don't believe me when I tell them how old he is, they always think he is older. His favorite thing to eat by far is watermelon. He absolutely loves it. The other day he was sitting in his highchair and we were giving him some and he had one a piece in his mouth, and oone in each and and he was whining for more on his try. I wish he felt that way about just one vegatable. He wont touch those.
So. School work is calling. I will update more often!

Getting Closer!

The end of the summer is a little over a month away.... That makes me sad, and also a little excited. I am sad because it is going to be hard and I am going to have to juggle between school, work and the little guy and it is going to be exhausting. I have had such a good time with my sweets over the last two months it really makes me regret not doing the school thing before. But I am doing this for us. So I can support us. I am older and chose to do some stupid things in my youth, and I am paying for that now, but trying my damndest to get my life in order. But, as I approach 28, I know that I did not want to wait too long to have a family. Not only have I always wanted to be a mom, Some of the last lucid words my grandmother said to me were not to wait to have a family. So at 26 I decided to have a baby. I knew it was going to be hard, but my son is soo worth it. I want to be someone that he can look up too. I want to be a role model for him. If he decides that he would like to go to college, I would like him to have someone to guide him. I want to be able to support him without having to worry.
I also want my mother to have a child that she can be proud of. My brothers and I really chose paths that took us down some bad roads and while I was lucky and got on the right track soon after I turned 18 it took one of my brothers a little longer, and one is still battling his problems, so I want to do this for my mom. I want her to be able to say that she has a child that is college educated and that makes her proud. Not that she is not proud of me now. My mom is my best friend and she is very proud of how I turned myself around and am taking care of myself, but it would be nice to give her something to be super proud of.
I also want to do it because I promised my grandma that I would.
But!
I am excited for school to start now that I have changed majors and I am excited to jump right in and get my hands dirty. I think I will do really well, I have always had an interest in science and stuff so the classes will be fun. I can't wait to get the prereq's done so that I can start the nursing program. I think after I have got the nursing part of it done, I want to look into what it would take for me to get my CNM (Certified Nurse-Midwife) because I want to be a L&D nurse, so why not go all the way and be someone who is actually allowed to deliver babies in non lifethreatening situations. That would be a dream. I am really hoping that with Cain being a little older this semester that it will be a little easier for me to do well in my classes. that way I can have more time for my baby boy.

I am going to pick up my school books today. I already have the math book and I was thinking of starting early on that so that I can get in as much practice as possible before next time.

So until next time, Pictures!
My sweets and I swimming


Uncle Bob's Elvis glasses

July '09

July'10

For the love of......

Reading!! I love to read. One of the best things to me is being able to find a good story. I love books that make you not want to put them down. Books that make you kind of sad when you've finished them, because you wish the story would keep going. I love a book that can draw you into the story, you are there with the characters experiencing the story.

The best thing about summer vacation is that I have time to read stories and books I want to read. I wanted to share some of my all time favorites and books that I am reading right now.

Okay. If any of you know me by know you know that I have to start this post with my love, The Harry Potter Series (JK Rowling). This is one story that was able to make me live in the book, to experience it. I think it may just be the child in me. I love the way JK Rowling was able to create a whole new world while drawing parrallels to the world we know. Awesome fun stories and I CAN NOT WAIT until Cain is old enough to understand and have me read them to him.

I must admit I have been sucked into the Twilight Series (Stephanie Meyer). I love it. It is a good romance. the books are definietly better than the movies although the movies are pretty good too imo.

Gone With the Wind (Margaret Mitchell) and the sequal Scarlett (Alexandria Ripley) have been two of my favorites since my teen years. I watched GWTW first, and then read the book and I fell in love with it. I like the history in the story along with the romance.

The Late Great Me (Sandra Scoppettone)- this book I read when I was like 14. I forgot about it for a long time and started looking for it again about a year and a half two years ago. I could not remember the title, but remembered key points in the story. I googled it off and on for those 2 years and finally about 4 weeks ago I found it. Bought it on ebay for a total of like 6 buck with the shipping. I was sooo happy!!! This is a tragic story of a teen alcoholic and her journey through it. Good good story. Based in the 70's.

Now I could go off and do this forever but instead of giving descriptions I'll just say that a few more of my favorites are: Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas(Hunter Thompson), Drowing Ruth (Chirstina Schwarz), The Lake of Dead Languages (Carol Goodman), Running in Heels (Anna Maxted. I've read a few by her and love them all), Can You Keep a Secret (Sophie Kinsella), Night (Elie Wiesel), Charlie Bone series (Jenny Nimmo), The Womans Murder club series ( James Patterson; although I haven't read any in a long time), Suzannes Diary for Nicholas (James Patterson), The Shining, and Cell (Both Stephen King).
Mr and Mrs. BoJo Jones (Ann Head), Tuck Everlasting (Natalie Babbitt), Of Mice and Men (John Steinbeck) and Lord of the Flies (William Golding). All books from my preteen/ early teen years that I still own today (and read)

Also I Love Mary Higgins Clark books. There are 3 or 4 Danelle Steel books I like as well.

I am going to start reading Wicked this weekend. I started it a while back and it was good, but then school started and I was not able to finish it. Can't wait to read the story of the Wicked Witch. I have a Bill Hicks (my favorite comedian) biography that I want to read that I have had forever. It by Stephen King. those are the three that I have planned for now. I am longing for a trip to Barnes and Noble but you need money for that. Soon though. The smell of new books is calling my name and I will satisfy that craving soon.

So as you can see when it comes to books my choice is eclectic. What are some books that you all like to read? Favorites, good reads etc. I am always looking for more stuff to read so Let me know!!

an Update and a Thank you!

So.... yeah.
I've not updated in quite a while and it is all because I really just haven't wanted too. Don't have an excuse, cause I've been home with the little man but I've just been doing other things. Like watching LOST. Jav and I loved LOST. But we got tired of the cliff hanger endings and so we quit watching, him at the end of season two and me in the middle of season three. Well, now that the series is over we are watching it!!! No cliff hanger endings for us!! lol

I went in to Pima the other day to fix some stuff that they had gotten mixed up regarding my major. I registered for a few different classes and dropped some that I had already registered for. I can't believe that I'll be back to soing school work in less than two months. Can't wait to have it all done! I am taking some spanish classes. I feel that it would be beneficial to know a second language and while I would like to learn something else like Russian or German, I think that Spanish would be more useful considering where I live.

My little man is such a big boy!! He is crusing all over the place. He hardly ever crawls anymore, but I noticed that with the crawling too. once he learned how to crawl up on his knees he no longer did the army crawl. now he walks. It is so amazing to look at him and think that a mere 15 months ago I was laying flat on my back trying to keep him inside. that a mere 13 months ago, he was born, that he looked so tiny and helpless and relied on me for everything. Now he is a very independant little boy, loves to constantly be moving or doing something, that he doesn't want mommy to hold him for more than a few minutes at a time, and he is suuuuch a daddy's boy. and here I am wanting to do it all over again. I can't wait to lose this weight so that I can give Cain (hopefully!!) a little sister :D

I want to sat thank you to my friend and Tattoo Artist Zip for providing me with the artwork for my new blog layout. Isn't it neat? Thanks Man, and I can't wait to have you Tattoo me!!

I've got a walker!!!

My little boy is a walker!! It is so stinkin cute I thought I would share a video.


Also, If you notice off to the side, there is a prayer button. I am not a religious person, therefore I do not pray, but I put this on my blog because this is a friend of mine that I met on my Incompetent Cervix support forum. Her son was born a day shy of 26 weeks gestation and they are currently going through the NICU. I ask that you please say a prayer, or send warm thoughts, or whatever you do for Issac. Deb is such a sweetheart and Little Isaac has already been through so much. Thanks. If you want to check out his story click on the button it will take you to his blog.

Happy Saturday!

1st Birthday!!

We woke up on 5/27 (his actual birthday) and let him open some prizes.





Then we went to the zoo






Saturday Was the Actual party









All in all? Good weekend. Fun times, Good party, Got to catch up with old, missed friends! (Yay Zip!!)

Its Been Awhile

So its been awhile since I've posted. It was so busy with the ending of school, and frankly after it was all over I didn't even want to LOOK at my computer for awhile. But it over (for summer) and Now I am feeling better. I passed two of my classes with a B! YAY!! I failed my math class (suck) but the instructor was cool and gave me a W instead of an F (I didn't even ask for it!) so that it would not effect my GPA. What an awesome teacher. I've got my classes for next semester all picked out. I will be taking the same math class again. I am going to sit down with my text book and actually try to teach this stuff to myself so that I can pass this class next semester with an A or B. I wanna kick ass!
Cain had his one year today. He is growing well. 74th percentile for height(30.5in) 84th for head circumference and 96th for weight(25.6lbs). The doc said that we need to start giving him regular milk and that that would probably help turn him on to table foods, because he doesn't eat them. He eats graham crackers, goldfish, saltines. He'll eat ground beef in small pieces, strawberries, and bananas. But he wont eat the toddler raviolis, he won't eat any other kind of food. The doc said that once we start weaning him off formula that that should help him eat regular food. So we start tomorrow (I can't bring myself to deny my love his bottle on the same day he got shots). I cried with him when he got his shots. Its so hard to have to hold your little guy down so that someone can stick him with a needle and inflict pain upon him. I hate it. It was funny though, the MA who gave him the shots, at first he was all smiles for her and flirty. After the shots he cried everytime she tried to talk to him! It was kinda neat to see him associate the two.
Cain's birthday party is saturday. Ive been cleaning like crazy. Our backyard looks good! I am gonna inflate the small pool so that Cain and Emily and the other kids can play in it. Ive got most of the food bought. I've got to go to frys and get the cake ordered. I've got lots of candy and little trinkets for the candy bags. I can't wait to have my family over for the little guy!
His actual birthday is Thursday, and since Jav is off that day we are going to take the little guy to the Zoo for his birthday. It'll be fun to do something as a family, since we so rarely have time off together anymore. I took Thursday and Friday off to spend with my lil man.
Cain's cousins, Aunt and Uncle (Jav's brother, sister in law and kiddos) are going to come by on their way to KS. I wish they were staying in Vegas. It was so fun to go visit them. I wish that they could have made it in time for Cain's party. It would have been so fun to have them there. They are fun people. The kids are a hoot! I love them :)
Speaking of Vegas, I seriously want to try and get out there for my birthday. I really liked it there and I left with still so much to see. So I want to go back. I want to go back and I want to make it a yearly vacation. I don't know that that is feasable but certainly something to wish for. I didnt think I was gonna like Vegas as much as I did. Its so fun!
Time for work, so I leave pics!

Happy 11 months Baby Boy!

Can it really be a year ago that I was nearing the end of my bedrest journey and not even knowing it? I still had a baby inside me who got the hiccups everyday, and only liked to move when I was sleeping, A baby that would kick his daddy in the back when we would cuddle at night, but would hardly kick for him when he put his hand on my belly. A baby that I didn't know the sex of, already had a lot of pictures of (I had sonograms every two weeks from 19 weeks to 29 weeks plus a couple after that for my AFI's) and already loved uncontrollably. I cant believe that my little 6lb 12oz'er is now over 25 lbs, and is oh so big. I can't believe that he crawls, walks along the furniture, babbles up a storm, eats like a champ, and just smiles all the time. He is such a happy baby. I am so happy that he is in my life, and that I am his mom.

This picture was taken at 27 5/7 weeks on April 3rd 2009. It does not seem like this picture was taken over a year ago (Please excuse the bed head and the slightly showing belly)


A year ago today I was 31 1/7 weeks pregnant. today I have an 11 month old. I love my life.

Made Another One

I think I like this one a little bit better. It looks a little better because I had a little better handle on what I was doing. So fun to customize these!

New blog template! Made by me!!

I was feeling creative.

I think that there are a lot of cute blog template's out there, but I wanted something more personable. So I decided to do one of my very own making! I am lucky that I live with two guys that are very photoshop savvy, and that they were able to help me when I got stuck. Thanks Jav and Bob!! I think I also got a bit of a handle on how to do it, so I just might spend more time making these templates instead of finding them online. I am so proud of myself! I think for a first attempt it didn't come out to bad. What do you think?

I am not conventional

Why do I say this? There are quite a few reasons.

First, which seems to be everyone's 'big thing', I am not religious. If I had to call it something, I would say I am 'agnostic atheist', that is to say, I do not believe in god, but I do not claim to know that a god does not exist. I do not believe in god because there is not concrete proof in my opinion to prove his existance. If someone could prove to me without a doubt that there was a god, I would believe. This makes me unconventional.

I could care less about appearance. I am not a girly girl. Sure sometimes I like to have a nice pair of shoes, or occasionally like to put makeup on, but I could not tell you the last time I wore a dress, or had a 'girls night out'. I am perfectly happy staying home, hair in a pony, jeans or sweats on and playing poker with the boys. Its been too long since we had a poker night. Hopefully when Jay comes we can squeeze one in.

I read. I like to learn. I could care less about 'celeb' gossip. I like rock music, but can pass on country. I like Barack Obama. I like black. Pink makes me sick. I love kids, but enjoy having quiet time. I like to indulge the kid in me, therefore I read things like Harry Potter and Twilight. I also am a romantic. I have the love of my life and the child I always wanted and while I would like to be married, I do it his way, because he means that much. And I am okay with it. I paint my toes but not my fingers. I weigh more than I should, but I think that if people really cared to know anything about me they could look past how I look, and I get proved right every day. I actually like my friends. I like to hang out with them, debate with them, be honest with them. Honest. There is a concept. More people should use it. I am not clicky. By this I mean that I am not going to try to be something I am not to get what I want.

I may not be conventional, but I think I am a good person. I am someone worth knowing. What does it matter what I wear or what I do or don't believe in? Sure people have to have some commonalities in order to hit it off, but variety is the spice of life, and friends are meant to learn and grow with each other. I love the friends I have. They mean so much to me. It is hard for me to let new people in cause it is so hard to know who you can trust anymore, and my fears on this point just grew when I had my son. But I always love to meet like (and unlike) minded people. Had to get that off my chest.

Almost Summer!!

School is less than a month away from being over.I am so excited for this fact! I love having the few summer months to unwind and take a little break from the hectic schedule that is working and school. The best part about this summer break? I have my little boy to spend it with!! Oh how I can't wait! His birthday is May 27th and I take my last final May 18th, so I am trying to get his birthday and the day after off so that I can start our vacation with lots of mommy-baby time. I am doing his birthday on the 29th so I'll have that to get ready for too. I already have some stuff bought for his party and I found some cute cake decorations online that I want to order and then see if I can have Fry's make the cake. This is the cake I want to have made:
I like it much better than any of the cakes the stores have, because everything is Elmo. Don't get me wrong, there is nothing wrong with Elmo, but Sesame Street is more than just Elmo.
Another thing I am looking forward to is being able to really clean my house. Ive been keeping it decent, what with having to clean up after a baby and sometimes the boys, but I am looking forward to really cleaning it up. I love a clean house. It makes me feel so organized.
Thing number 3 I am looking forward to? Reading a book for myself!!! I bought a new Mary Higgins Clark book I would like to read. I love MHC. Good thriller/ murder mysteries. I would also like to re-read Drowning Ruth. Good novel. Also a couple of Danielle Steel books I would like to re-read. If I can squeeze it in a Anna Maxted too. So many books, so little time. There are lots of good books on my bookshelf, I think I'll need to make a separate post about books in the future. I just want to fit as many as I can in before having to be consumed by school books again.
Swimming would be the last thing off the top of my head that I am looking forward to. I love to swim. I love the water in general. Sitting in a warm bath, a jacuzzi, a pool the lake the ocean you name it. Last summer I took Cain swimming in the middle of July, and that Is when he first smiled at me. I cant wait to take him again.

So, its time to go to work. Leaving with pics.

Major change, Random Musings, and things

To start this post I want to put something that I saw as a post (on Facebook) by my boyfriends teacher Aunt that lives in Texas:

23,000 teachers were given pink slips in CA & 17,000 in IL. New Jersey & FL are cutting teacher jobs & reducing salaries as well. We need to get our priorities in order. Athletes get paid millions, but teachers who we trust to help raise & educate our kids get no respect! In honor of ALL teachers, copy & paste this into your status.

I have not looked into this to verify its truth, but if this is true (which I tend to think it is very possible it could be)this is disgusting and I think that we as a country spend waaaay too much money on other things but put off giving our children a good education, which is ridiculous, because in the "long run" the best possible thing they could do for the country is to educate the minds that will someday be in charge. Not only that, but I believe that it is a natural human instinct to want to learn and grow, and I just can't understand how we could deny our children that. This leaqds into my Major change. I am going to try and get into Pima's nursing program. I need about 5 more prereq's before I can apply to the program so next semester I am going to take classes towards that. I dont make this change lightly either. But with the current state of things, not only in our state, but in the whole country, I am afraid of coming out of school with all these student loans and not having a job available to me to start paying them back. That would not be such a big deal to me, if it was not for Cain. I need to be able to support my baby. Plus I've always said that I would explore nursing if I couldnt/changed my mind about education. I think I would be good at it, and my long term goal would be to work in labor and delivery. I think I would be good at it considering how interested I am in the birthing process, and I really think that my knowledge of the other (sad) side of what could happen would be a good quality and give me a unique empathy that would help me connect with patients. But I am getting ahead of myself. I need to get into the program first. I need to pass math 92 first. I need to make it through this year first.
On to some randomness. I've got a couple of different random things. First I was watching 20/20 tonight and they were talking about a woman who did not know she was pregnant. She already had 3 kids. WHAT?!? How can you have three kids and not know you are pregnant? how is it possible? It can't be? I could understand if it was her first child and she was like me and had irregular periods. I could get that. To a point. Even with how irregular I am I still managed to find out I was pregnant at about 6 weeks along. How do you not feel your baby moving? she had a 9lb 9oz BABY. how do you not feel that moving around in you?! Cain was 6lb 12oz and I felt him all the time. This idea is bizarre to me. what is even more bizarre is that her husband had had a vasectomy. There is less than a 1% chance that someone can get pregnant. Well either this girl won the "against all odds" lottery, or something else is going on. other randomness....

I watched this video that one of my facebook friends posted about a "nanny" babysitter. This lady was slamming an 11 month old on the ground, throwing him onto a playpen, smacking him across the back of his head, kicking him, kicking /throwing stuff at him. an 11 month old.that is only 1 month older than my sweets. All I could see when I watched that video was My baby sitting there playing with a ball and being hit by some grown ass woman. It made me cry for that poor innocent little child. A baby. Ive always hated reading about this stuff before and thought that people like this deserved to rot in whatever pit of despair they are thrown into. But now, to be a mother and see this makes me want to beat that woman senseless. I am sorry if that offends some of you, but if I EVER caught anyone doing that to my son they better call the cops on themselves and hope I dont get to them first. Not even just my son. ANY child. My son. My niece and nephew. The kids I care for at work. The kid across the street. The kid across town. You get the point. It makes me sick. I understand even less the parents that can do this to their children. I saw a new clip online about baby Brianna Lopez. I bawled for over an hour for this poor poor baby. She was only like 6 month old and her parents were MONSTERS. I am not going to go into it here, and if you plan to look it up I am warning you now her story is very horrifying. I dont believe in hell, but I hope her parents rot in it. I am sorry. This is morbid I know. But this is just something that I feel so strongly about lately.

Easter was good. We did Easter at my mom's the week before so on Easter weekend we went to Jav's mom's house. Saturday we went to My mom's BF's (Marcos') work for an egg hunt. Cain had a good time. I love to see that boy smile (which is all the time when he isn't cranky) I also love taking him to work with me. He always has so much fun playing with the other babies.

Sorry bout the late Easter stuff, I felt Grandma Sam deserved the first post for April.

I am tired, so I am leaving you with..... Pictures!!!


This is so not posed!

Charging the Easter Basket

Mickey Mouse ears my mom brought him back from Disneyland

Playing with eggs

Playing with Shyla and Samantha

Playing with toys at my work

Shyla's cutie smile and Cain and the infamous upside down binky!

Cain looking for eggs!